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7/15/2008
compilation

   i've just realized that my inbox (phone) is almost always full. i read through the messages and saw that most of them were forwarded quotes from my friends. the reason i saved them? because the messages struck a note or hit me in some sort of way. i thought they all rang certain truths. so i've decided to compile these messages in the hopes that the truths that they speak will make some difference to how you're feeling and what you're thinking:

"There are certain things in life that are better off unknown. Things you wish you never asked, never saw, never heard and sometimes never even felt."

"You should not be sorry about love. Rather, it should make you wonder that if you were once happy with the wrong one, how much more when the right one comes?"

"It has never been a question of who forgets. But sometimes, there's a definite pain on being the one who remembers everything."

"One of the reasons why people hold on to memories so tight is because memories are the only things that don't change when everything else does."

"Sometimes, you can't stop yourself from hoping for yesterday to come back especially when yesterday was the only future you ever wanted and needed from the start."

"Pakawalan mo yung mga bagay na nakakasakit sayo kahit na pinapasaya ka nito. Wag mong hintayin yung araw na sakit na lang nararamdaman mo at iniwan ka na ng kasiyahan mo." - Bob Ong

"Love someone whose heart has been broken so he/she knows exactly how it feels, so as not to break yours."

"In order for you to be truly happy with other people, you have to learn first how to be contented and happy being alone. Its only when you become in touch with yourself that you realize how important it is to be a whole person before sharing your life with someone else."

"You let go, let the tears flow, feel it completely- but eventually be able to say: Alright, that was my moment with loneliness. I'm not afraid of being lonely, but I'm going to put that loneliness aside and know that there are other emotions in the world, and I'm going to experience them as well..." - Tuesdays with Morrie

"Let go of what kills you and hold on to what keeps you breathing."

"You know what's nice when having a hangover? Its when your head hurts more than your heart..."

"Somewhere between heartaches and waiting comes another chance to be found by someone who can show you that you don't deserve to be just an option but the only choice."

"Love is the answer. But while you're waiting for the answer, sex raises some pretty good questions." - Woody Allen

"Pag pinag-aagawan ka, malamang maganda o guwapo ka. Sumama ka sa mabuti, di sa mabait. Sa marunong, di sa matalino. Sa mahal ka, di sa gusto ka." -Bob Ong

"Pretending to be friends with the one you love is like breathing under water. You can't hold it too long because if you do, you won't make it out alive."

"If Cinderella's glass slippers fit perfectly, why did it fall off along the way? Maybe it speaks about an important lesson: Not everything that perfectly fits, fits forever."

"You can't force yourself to forget something because the only reason why we forget is when a better memory has taken its place."

"Always remember that the longer you stay with the things you don't really enjoy equates to every moment you lose with what could be a happy life." -Charlie Chaplin

"The first step towards getting somewhere is to decide that you're not going to stay where you are." Dora the Explorer

"For most of the time, you won't remember the last time you kissed the one you love. That's because you never thought it would be the last." Grey's Anatomy

"If a problem has no solution, it may not be a problem, but a fact - not to be solved, but to be coped with over time."

"The thing about life is that we don't know what's next. It's scary. The thought of being helpless and unprepared could be regrets or disappointments. Although what we don't know won't hurt us really, it's what we expect that usually does."

"I wonder which is worse: not knowing what's missing in your life and looking for it for the rest of your life or knowing what it is and knowing that you can never have it?"

"The best feeling in the world is realizing you're perfectly happy without the thing you thought you needed the most."

"What will you do when faced with two choices? Simple. Just toss a coin. It works, not because it settles the question for you, but while the coin is in the air, you suddenly know what you're hoping for."

"Bakit ba ayaw matulog ng mga bata sa tanghali? Alam ba nilang pag natuto silang umibig e hindi sila makakatulog kahit gusto nila?" -Bob Ong

"Sometimes, its not love. Sometimes, you've just become so attached that you've developed a need for that person. Just a need. Not love. But you're too scared to admit it, even to yourself. Because you know that if you do, you might lose the only person who actually gives a damn about your life."

"Just when everything is falling apart, look again. Maybe, just maybe, things are actually falling into their rightful place."

"Until one morning, I'll wake up and find I'm thinking about something else and then I'll know the worst is over. My heart might be bruised, but it will recover and become capable of seeing the beauty of life once more. It happened before, it will happen again I'm sure. When someone leaves, its because someone is about to arrive -- I'll find love again." - Paolo Coehlo

"People always look for the best and when we finally see it, we take it for granted expecting to find a better one, not knowing it was the best."

"I want a right-wrong one. Someone I would lovingly gaze upon and whisper to myself: "She is the only problem I would like to have forever."

"When I was a little kid, I fell from a tree. But I managed to hold on to a branch. I was up there for a long time and waited. The silence, the pain in my arms, the blood pumping in my ears. Then I fell. I couldn't remember what happened when I hit the ground. All I could remember was the agony of holding on and the wonderful feeling of letting go."

"Follow your heart wherever it leads you and when you reach a dead end or  whenever you get lost, use your brain to bring you back home."

"He pushed the pain away so hard, he disconnected himself from the person he loved the most." What Dreams May Come

"Everything that happens once can never happen again, but everything that happens twice will surely happen a third time." - The Alchemist

and...

"At one time in your life, the one you have loved most will, unexpectedly, turn out to be the greatest stranger you have ever met."

 

whew! that was a lot. and that wasn't even everything. haha. i consider a lot of these quotes my philosphies in life. a lot of them helped me get through my break up since most of them spoke of love lost and the promise of a better tomorrow. oh, and sorry if there are any typos. i've had a couple of beers and a lot of smoke before i wrote this. haha.  

hope you had fun reading them. :)

Posted at 3:37:31 am by tequila_breath
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7/13/2008
lack of endorphins

A City of Sleeping Hearts
Urbandub

The air is still at 3
The streets are asleep for now
The world, it folds its arms
It embraces me.
And hides me from all harm
It hides me from all harm.

I ponder the loss of stars
In the night sky,
A smoked filled air tonight
For all of us
I weep for our loss.
I wander these streets
The corners I turn
Solace in shadows and road lights
That burn comfort in thoughts
I am home.

Tears flood the streets at 3
Drowning out my broken heart
Loneliness spreads its arms
It embraces me.
And kills me so slowly
It kills me so slowly.

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low day today. :( i hope things'll be better when i wake up...

7/12/2008
on insomnia (among other things...)

Let me give you a clear picture of what happened to me yesterday (July 11-12, 2008):

07/11

2pm: woke up, had lunch, the usual "morning" stuff. haha.

3pm-6pm: blogged, surfed, watched tv, etc.

6pm-7pm: dinner ( yes, i ate again...)

7pm: went to a nearby coffee shop, had a cup of coffee and caught up with my reading

07/12

2am: finally went home (after a whole bunch of chapters on physiology and pharmacology)

2am-3:30am: blogged and surfed again (hey, its an addiction. i can't help it.)

3:30am: decided to call it a day, needed to get some shut eye

5am: still wide awake, tossing and turning, thinking of a whole bunch of stuff (yep, those things that usually haunt you at night like life, love, the works...)

5:30am: finally got to dose off -- not yet quite in the REM stage but i knew i slept for a few...

7am: annoying little bird was chirping outside my window (felt like living in the province. this is manila for cryin' out loud!)

7:30am: still awake because of that annoying tweety bird -- noticed that the sun was already way up there

8am: decided that my sleep-wake cycle is totally f**ked up and there's no way i can sleep with all the brightness around me

8:10am: went down to have breakfast (the first one i've had in a month due my odd schedule)

9:30am: decided to go online (adik! adik! adik!)

so now, my back hurts. my head's throbbing. i'm tired. i want to get some rest but i can't. wah!

either i've had too much caffeine or someone's been thinking of me (in a not so fond way) from 5-8am!

*tequila is in CRANKY mode* 

 

sharing a lovely poem

*this was written by my high school adviser/lit teacher. this piece was taken from her collection of works called Reaching Destination Poems and the Search for Home (c 2004)

 

Acid
by
Nerisa del Carmen Guevara

I wish that I could feel something other than this burning in my stomach. I wanted very much to feel the emptiness of your leaving. I wanted very much to pay attention to the pain in your chest as it took you all your breath to tell me that you were leaving. My tears spilled like yours as my stomach mashed itself into my diaphragm, I wanted so much to stand to stop you but my pain made me fetal, my sadness as well but i couldn't tell the difference at that time. I looked like I wanted you to go. But you see, this pain is embarrassing so I let you leave.

Now that you are gone, I am afraid of numbess. Because there was nothing I could have done. Nothing a seltzer would have done. Now I hide behind my stomach.

Maybe while you were speaking, my heart slipped into my stomach. Maybe that was the pain I felt all along. My stomach eating my heart.

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this post is dedicated for all of us who've loved and lost at one point in time. :) as Calvin said: "That's one of the remarkable things about life. It's never so bad that it can't get worse."

may we have more bad days than worse ones. :) 

7/10/2008
showing off my digits

 

3 -- the number of girlfriends i've had

3 -- real good friends who became my girlfriends  (haha)

6 (years) -- the longest relationship i've had

2 (years) -- the shortest

16 -- when i had my first kiss

a decade -- that i've been with someone (encompasses all 3 gfs)

1 -- fling ( i swear, isa lang talaga)

0 -- one night stands

15, 21, 25 -- dates of monthsarries

24 -- age when i found myself single

13 (months) -- since she broke my heart

4 (years) -- since i broke her heart

2 (months) -- since she's been out of my mind (finally!)

2 -- crushes who are both taken (sigh...)

1 -- crush who had just broken up with her gf (ayoko naman maging rebound)

-3 (months) -- when i can finally decide that i'm sane enough to go out on dates

the things is, these numbers aren't really anything. they just appear to be some sort of twisted timeline reminding me of the things i've done and the things that i may want to do or not do.

the concept of statistics is very abstract for me. i never really hated math. but it wasn't one of my favorite subjects either. in the same way that having written those digits above, i find it more confusing how i can summarize my lovelife by using a bunch of numbers. then again, hasn't there been this text message going around which says how math is the background for some of the most tragic stories? haha.

i wish we could just skip the problem solving and just get to the answers. arrive at the solution. the end point. (for some people: the happy ending) yeah, i know, i have low EQ. but for most people out there, aren't you tired of waiting for that answer to be revealed to you? how can you tell that this is you happy ending. or maybe this is just a stepping stone for your soon to be happy ending. haha. i guess we'll never really know until the end is there.

now let's talk about chemistry...

thought for the day:

the early bird...

 

DIDN'T PARTY LAST NIGHT!!!

 

-from a Pepsi Max billboard along EDSA-

Posted at 4:31:54 am by tequila_breath
drink with me!  

7/9/2008
secrets (well, sorta...)

Tequila is currently listening to: Cebuana by UrbanDub 

 

Things Very Few People Know About Me:

1. i'm scared of ants and heights

2. i can go to a japanese buffet and eat just salmon sashimi the entire time

3. i've only been smoking for 2 years

4. i broke someones heart, once (and never again...)

5. someone broke my heart, once (and never again!)

6. i don't enjoy cartoons as much as i used to

7. i love getting massages and foot rubs

8. i can only sing in videoke bars when i've had a lot to drink

9. i have a fetish for cleaning my ears

10. i have the patience of a 3 year old

11. i don't understand people who can live without music

12. i have really bad (and really small) handwriting

13. i'd choose a warm bath over a cold shower anytime

14. i've never cried in any of my graduations

15. i'm willing to drive any distance provided that its worth my time

16. i go out for drives when i'm bored

17. i hate it when people take off their shoes in an airconditioned room

18. i am an insomniac

19. i've written a lot of things that i can't seem to finish so they all end up getting shelved and forgotten

20. i forget names of people a lot

i wish i could think of something better to blog about. haha.

7/8/2008
ako din, pasagot!

1. If someone were to tell you they like you right now, would you care?
-- yeah, i'd care. pero depende pa kung sino e...
2. Do you still talk to the person you fell hardest for
-- yep. operative word: fell (past tense. tapos na.)
3. Where did you last sleep other than your house?
-- sa plane (over a month ago pa. haha)
4. Do you have a best friend?
-- i have best friendS
5. Do you smoke?
-- yep. i'll quit when i'm 30. pramis.
6. Do you remember what you were like a year ago?
-- absolutely. i was broken hearted and devastated. last year yun.
7. Who was the last person you cried in front of?
-- my ex. tapos sabi ko that was the last time na iiyakan ko sya.
8. Where are you right now, and how do you feel about where you are?
-- at home. bored. and tired. i wanna sleep.
9. What are you listening to?
-- Closer to You by The Wallflowers
10. When will your next kiss be?
-- no idea. i can't even remember when the last one was...
11. Where do you keep your money?
-- my wallet and between the pages of books on my shelf
12. Do you love someone right now?
-- define love. haha. but no, i'm not in love with anyone right now. teka, counted ba si carmen sa L-word? haha.
13. Do you like someone right now?
-- i like a lot of people. haha. pero boards muna. saka na ang girls.
14. Who was the last person to call you pretty?-
-- myself. haha. :)
15. Ever have a sleepover with the opposite sex?
-- oo naman. pag duty. kahit sino tinatabihan ko pag inaantok ako.
16. Where did your last hug take place?
-- sat nyt in my car. i'm not really a hugging kind of person.
17. Where were you at 3:02am?
-- at home, staring at my ceiling praying for sleep to come.
19. How do you feel about the person who texted you last?
-- haha. sister ko? humingi ako ng pera kasi naiwan ko wallet ko sa bahay.
20. Do you use smiley faces on the computer a lot?
-- uh-huh. :)
21. Have you ever changed clothes in a vehicle?
-- yep. pang-DOM yung tint ng car ko e. para daw sa mga may masamang balak. 
22. Who did you last go out to eat with?
-- C2 with my ex. (friendly dinner, pramis.)
23. Do you have unlimited texts?
-- nope.
25. When is the last time you took a nap?
-- sunday afternoon in my lolo's hospital room.
26. Who was the last person you talked to on the phone?
-- my mom. siya na lang daw magdadala ng money sakin sa coffee shop.
27. Do you talk about your feelings or hide them?
-- i used to hide them. but i've been very vocal the past few months.
28. Do you wear glasses?
-- nope. but i want to. and i used to.
29. What are you looking forward to in the next month?
-- i can't really say i'm looking forward to the board exams so my answer would have to be my birthday. (which incidentally falls on the 3rd day of my exams)
30. The way to win your heart?
-- honesty.
31. how was your weekend?
-- boring...
32. Are you dating the last person you kissed?
-- nope.
33. What are you like when you're drunk?
-- i vomit a lot. haha. the wonders of allergies...
34. The last person you fought with?
-- i can't remember...
35. What were you doing last night at 10pm?
-- sitting inside a coffee shop reading high-yield principles of internal medicine
36. How long is your hair?
-- short. and i'm due for a haircut.
37. Last text message received?
-- a forwarded joke.
38. Name what's on your mind right now?
-- boards! boards! boards!
39. What were you last listening to?
-- before Closer to You? i guess it was Forget her by Jeff Buckley
40. When was the last time you sang out loud?
-- a few seconds ago. kebs kung out of tune. :)
41. What do you really want right now?
-- a big fat juicy steak that still bleeds when you cut it...
42. When was the last time you got yelled at?
-- i can't remember this one too
43. Who do you really want to see right now?
-- my friends and my crushies. haha.
44. Are you a player?
-- no. never. but i've had several lapses in judgement...
45. Who was the last person you slept in a bed with?
-- counted ba laptop ko? i gave her a name. haha. oo, babae ang laptop ko. :)

 

whew! that was long. but it was fun. yes, i'm that bored. life has become a monotony of enzymes, drugs, diseases, symptoms and medical jargon that i think i'm flippin' out. i need a real break. seriously. :)

7/7/2008
wasted

eto po ang epitome ng wasak. haha. after several shots of god knows what and few bottles of beer, i always end up flushed, tachycardic and edematous (regardless of the anti-histamines i prophylactically take before my drinking spree). and yes, i need a haircut. :) mas maayos ako in person, i swear...

7/2/2008
1 year

 

i've been single for a year

the first time since high school

what did that song say again?

yeah, i remember:

"i'm putting my heart back together..."

let's celebrate. :)

 

 


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i am tequila breath

25 years old

reviewing for the board exams

alcoholic in denial

x-men and star wars freak

obsessed with tequila, baileys and SMB

hates jeepney drivers

would love to have a pug

searching for redemption

abhors vanity

attracted to logic and reasoning

anti-pop movement

contented with a can of peaches and a bar of chocolate

in constant denial

impulsive buyer

sleeps beside a bunch of junk

ridiculous looking in hats

stutters when pressured

has very bad short term memory

has very bad depth perception

can almost be considered blind in low-lighted areas

searching for that one person who'll amaze me beyond comprehension









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"And The Vampire was all that remained on
the blood drowned creation. She attempted to
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about to give the breath of life, she was
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cycle began again."

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