everything looks so wobbly...

7/12/2008

sharing a lovely poem

*this was written by my high school adviser/lit teacher. this piece was taken from her collection of works called Reaching Destination Poems and the Search for Home (c 2004)

Acid
by
Nerisa del Carmen Guevara

I wish that I could feel something other than this burning in my stomach. I wanted very much to feel the emptiness of your leaving. I wanted very much to pay attention to the pain in your chest as it took you all your breath to tell me that you were leaving. My tears spilled like yours as my stomach mashed itself into my diaphragm, I wanted so much to stand to stop you but my pain made me fetal, my sadness as well but i couldn't tell the difference at that time. I looked like I wanted you to go. But you see, this pain is embarrassing so I let you leave.

Now that you are gone, I am afraid of numbess. Because there was nothing I could have done. Nothing a seltzer would have done. Now I hide behind my stomach.

Maybe while you were speaking, my heart slipped into my stomach. Maybe that was the pain I felt all along. My stomach eating my heart.

---------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

this post is dedicated for all of us who've loved and lost at one point in time. :) as Calvin said: "That's one of the remarkable things about life. It's never so bad that it can't get worse."

may we have more bad days than worse ones. :)

Posted at 3:54:38 am by tequila_breath

kilcher
July 15, 2008 11:54 AM PDT

tq: ui pa-share naman nung tremors :)

scout: yabang mo! :p ganun talaga pag walang magawa, kung san-san nakakarating :)
Jham
July 15, 2008 06:10 AM PDT

yun lang mas matangkad sayu? sana araw araw ka na lang ng high heels o tinungga mo ang growee!
tequila breath
July 15, 2008 05:43 AM PDT

ayoko na din alamin kung ano nakita niya dun sa nurse.

les din. mas mataas sakin. yun lang. haha. naisip ko nga, mas matatanggap ko pa ata kung guy yung pinalit niya e. parang mas kaya ko i-justify...
Jham
July 15, 2008 05:38 AM PDT

at ano namang nakita nya sa nurse na yun? mas magaling ba mg alaga.. wait.. les dn ba ang pinalit sayu?o straight?
tequila breath
July 15, 2008 05:15 AM PDT

well, hindi din naman kasi pangit yung pinalit sakin. nurse siya. sa same hospital kung saan ako. isipin mo na lang ang inabot na blow ng ego ko diba?

nawawala nga si she. baka natulog na...
Jham
July 15, 2008 05:07 AM PDT

korekness.. pagpapalit ka sa iba,, pero pag nakita mo yung pinalit nya sayu..hindi mo alam kung maasar ka o matatwa ka!

hay..

*kampay*

asan na ba si she??hmm..
tequila breath
July 15, 2008 04:52 AM PDT

haha. alam ko yung feeling na yun. it was exactly what happened to me. akala ko we were ok tapos biglang *poof* she wanted to leave me because she already liked someone else.

ang masama sa ganun na sitwasyon is pati yung ego mo sobrang nasaktan. yung type na napa-feel niya sayo na hindi ka enough for me pero etong tao na ipapalit ko, di hamak na mas better kesa sayo.

boo. naaalala ko nanaman tuloy mga nangyari samin.

*emo mode na talaga*
Jham
July 15, 2008 04:15 AM PDT

oo nga.. pero mas maganda siguro kapag iniwan ka sa ibang kadahilanan.. o nagpaalam sya at nagexplain bat nya nagawang maghanap ng iba.. hindi yung pagising mo.. surprise!! my iba na sya..tablado ka na..
ouch yun!!

si she.. sa exe nya asuswal..=( amp!.. ask mo na lang sakanya gerl.. basta alam ko nasagupaan sila ng exe nya..

*emo mode tayong 3*

lets volt in!
tequila breath
July 15, 2008 03:14 AM PDT

jham:
dahil jan, magsama-sama tayong 3 sa emo mode...

nabasa ko yung post ni she. ano ba nangyari? nagcomment na din ako kahit hindi ko alam yung buong kwento.

mas masakit nga talaga ang lokohin ka. pero pag niloko ka, ikaw din ang iniwan diba? :)
Jham
July 15, 2008 02:55 AM PDT

hindi.. ang pinakamasakit ay maloko.. knowing that you've done your part.. sobra pa nga kung minsan..

haaayy..

*emo mode dahil sad si she*
tequila breath
July 13, 2008 04:48 AM PDT

kilcher: there's another one she wrote called tremors. i think its even better than this one. i posted it in my multiply site. post ko din dito sometime. :)

scout: yeah, madaming trade nga gagawin natin. haha. we should talk about her more. she was the most interesting adviser...
scout
July 12, 2008 11:24 PM PDT

TQ: ok then. we'll have a lot of stuff to trade when we meet. :) we must talk about her more. there's a six degrees of separation thing going on. :)

kilcher: kung saan-saan ka talaga nakakarating. :P

kilcher
July 12, 2008 04:29 PM PDT

*daan lang, pa-comment na rin*

nice poem. simple but it hits you, really hits you. i haven't read the book yet though. :)

ps - indeed, bad is better than worse, right? panalo talaga si calvin ever.
tequila breath
July 12, 2008 10:01 AM PDT

scout -- weh. i'm flattered. haha. pero she was really something else back in HS. she was also the moderator of this lit club called the sacred circle (which she mentioned in the book) where she encouraged HS students to explore their creativity. i was never a member of the club since she was already my class adviser but i could lend you a book of their compiled works. :)

jham -- at bakit ka naman emo mode? haha. wala naman ata may gusto ng feeling na naiwan. kahit ano pa ang sabihin nilang lahat, mas masakit pag iniwan ka kesa mang iwan... *emo mode din tuloy*
scout
July 12, 2008 07:01 AM PDT

wow. naging HS teacher mo pala sya. no wonder you're good. :)

you're quite lucky. i've read Reaching Destination before and immediately fell in love with her poetry. the thing i like most is that she doesn't overly complicate her verses. they are simple, with pure, unadulterated emotions and no pretensions.

hay, i *crush* her. :)
Jham
July 12, 2008 05:03 AM PDT

Lurve it!

-sad poem.. hm.. *muni muni*
-ayoko talaga yung feeling na iiwan ka ng taong minahal mo ng totoo..

*emo mode*

Leave a Comment:

Name

Homepage (optional)

Comments

Home

i am tequila breath

25 years old

reviewing for the board exams

alcoholic in denial

x-men and star wars freak

obsessed with tequila, baileys and SMB

hates jeepney drivers

would love to have a pug

searching for redemption

abhors vanity

attracted to logic and reasoning

anti-pop movement

contented with a can of peaches and a bar of chocolate

in constant denial

impulsive buyer

sleeps beside a bunch of junk

ridiculous looking in hats

stutters when pressured

has very bad short term memory

has very bad depth perception

can almost be considered blind in low-lighted areas

searching for that one person who'll amaze me beyond comprehension

Share your drunken thoughts:



Message

You are Form 9, Vampire: The Undying.

"And The Vampire was all that remained on
the blood drowned creation. She attempted to
regrow life from the dead. But as she was
about to give the breath of life, she was
consumed in the flame of The Phoenix and the
cycle began again."

Some examples of the Vampire Form are Hades (Greek)
and Isis (Egyptian).
The Vampire is associated with the concept of
death, the number 9, and the element of fire.
Her sign is the eclipsed moon.

Must have shots of wisdom:

scoutfinch

fiery_eve

she

katz

kass

CuteJuggler

shao

chic

jhamy

sappho

zaren

karla

pussy lover

Daily doses:

stupid videos

jkrowling

Comicbook Movies

AboutWomyn

After Ellen

peyups

Quotables:

"I was that dog who saw the rainbow." - Kate and Leopold

"When you least expect it, love happens. Just like appendicitis." - Music from Another Room

"Surprisingly, everything turns out well. How? I don't know, it's a mystery." - Shakespeare in Love

"...my wasted heart will always love you." - Love Actually

"You know I love you oh so well, like a kid loves candy and fresh snow..." - Oh by Dave Matthews Band

"Truth in relationships don't make life better, they make life possible." - 6 ft Under

"Vanity is a call for attention."

"We are what we do, not what we say." -Music from Another Room

"Love is not a feeling. It's and ability." -Dan In Real Life

"Everything will end soon. Like all love will." -Nerisa GUevara

Contact Me